Today is Day 6 of the March Slice of Life – the daily writing challenge hosted at “Two Writing Teachers”.
I am using Encyclopedia of Me; My Life from A to Z, a guided journal created by Amy Krause Rosenthal.
F for Fears
Everyone has fears – whether small (spiders, snakes) or big (heights)
Sometimes heights and closed spaces bother me and although I’m not crazy about spiders, I don’t fear them (well, except for the really big ones!)
My biggest fear though is driving. I have never had a full-blown panic attack, but then, I just don’t drive if the fear is there. It has limited me, and I know my children were upset when I couldn’t drive on the 401 or go someplace new to me.
The fear began after an accident 30+ years ago.
My daughter was 9 months old and we were moving from Alberta back to Ontario. We had been driving for 24 hours straight. I had wanted to stop in Winnipeg as I had family there, but my now-ex refused.
I had only been driving for a month and it was my turn to drive. Just outside Dryden, with the sun full in my face, my eyes closed. Next thing I knew, I was on gravel. I started awake, pulled the car back onto the highway, only to lose control. The car rolled across the highway, settling on its roof. Luckily, we hit no one and we weren’t seriously injured – my daughter had cuts across her forehead (she still has the scars), my collarbone was broken and I was scraped up (the whiplash I still feel the effects of.)
It took me a year to drive again and a long time til I felt more comfortable driving. But I never got over the fear.